ChaoxAngel - Chaos with the X!

No longer writing on Blogger and Live Journal!

2007-09-03T01:01:00.000-07:00

GOODBYE! SAYONARA!!!

My new site is here - www.chaoxangel.com

DMSE Outing... 25 May 2007

2007-05-29T20:28:00.000-07:00

My dear friend Tah Liang from my Polytechnic Class has arranged an outing for all of us at Sizzler at suntec city.

It's a rare opportunity for me to meet many friends, many of whom I hadn't seen in donkey years (about... 4 years!)

Gosh, they changed a lot! It was a good time, exchanging contacts and such, and catching up with each other, I say, that I ate more air than food talking so much.

After the dinner, we decided to get some place to sit down (Starbucks) and talk, but regrettably, there are enough seats for 2/3 of us... So the guys "gracefully" retired to the... pub... Heh heh...

Rest of the PhotoAlbum is here: http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v376/ChaoxAngel/DMSE_Outing_May2007/

Puppy!

2007-04-21T06:24:00.000-07:00

You Are a Chow Puppy

Don't fence me in!
You're an independent spirit that won't be tied down.

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

Translated Song: 五月天：天使

2007-04-20T02:29:00.000-07:00

天使
Tian Shi
Angel

你就是我的天使保护著我的天使从此我再没有忧伤
Ni Jiu Shi Wo De Tian Shi, Bao Hu Zhe Wo De Tian Shi, Cong Ci Wo Zai Mei You You Shang.
You are my Angel, My Guardian Angel, (with you...) I'd never have to grieve.

你就是我的天使给我快乐的天使甚至我学会了飞翔
Ni Jiu Shi Wo De Tian Shi, Gei Wo Kuai Le De Tian Shi, Shen Zhi Wo Xue Hui Le Fei Xiang.
You are my Angel, My Angel of Happiness, (with you...) I've even learnt to fly.

飞过人间的无常才懂爱才是宝藏
Fei Gui Ren Jian De Wu Chang, Cai Dong Ai Cai Shi Bao Zang.
Soaring above the worldy impermanence, (i've) then realised that love is the (true) treasure.

不管世界变得怎么样只要有你就会是天堂
Bu Guan Shi Jie Bian De Zen Me Yang, Zhi Yao You Ni Jiu Hui Shi Tian Tang.
Irregardless of what the world might become, Heaven is having you here with me.

像孩子依赖著肩膀像眼泪依赖著脸庞
Xiang Hai Ze Yi Lai Zhe Jian Bang, Xiang Yan Lei Yi Lai Zhe Lian Pang.
Like a child needing a shoulder (to lean upon), Like a tear needing the cheek (to roll down from).

你就像天使一样给我依赖给我力量
Ni Jou Xiang Tian Shi Yi Yang, Gei Wo Yi Lai, Gei Wo Li Liang.
You're just like an angel, granting my needs, giving me strength.

像诗人依赖著月亮像海豚依赖海洋
Xiang Shi Ren Yi Lai Zhe Yue Liang, Xiang Hai Tun Yi Lai Zhe Hai Yang.
Like a poet needing the moon (to be inspired on), Like a Dolphin needing the oceans (to live from),

你是天使你是天使
Ni Shi Tian Shi Ni Shi Tian Shi
You're an Angel, You're an Angel!

你是我最初和最后的天堂
Ni Shi Wo Zui Chu He Zui Hou De Tian Tang
You are, from my beginning until my end, my (one and only piece of) heaven.

(Words in parenthesis are implied and interpreted meanings, I cannot literately translate Chinese text and lyrics word for word, because it would literately, sound stupid - google search topic: "Chinglish")

Shake... Shake... Shake... zzz

2007-03-08T21:14:00.000-08:00

I was slumped into my chair, having worked overnight the day before, I was a little dazed, idly doing my work like a lifeless zombie.

My boss was answering the phone just beside my table when I felt it sway... gently together with my chair, it was like, riding in a boat on idle waves. I thought my boss struck hit the table with his thigh, but does he have to hit it repeatedly?

Oh that's interesting, my boss isn't connecting any part of him to my desk, and I could hear the false ceiling above me creak.

Right, I need a good shake, and a lullaby too. I'm dead tired from last night's continuous work. Earthquake? I didn't think of it. Oh well, I guess the whole office is too numb to realise that it's an earthquake... like, it's only barely felt. But it seemed enough to make the next door neighbours go scatter like critters.

Oh anyway, it's nearing lunch time, so might as well... head for an early one...

Darn, have to go down the stairs. They shut off the elevators. Ugh.

She Left...

2007-02-28T23:08:00.000-08:00

The mere thought of what has happened the past week sends wafts of invisible smoke into my eyes... I couldn't write anything for quite sometime.

She left, on the morning of 21st of February.

She was 82.

Petals of Sorrows

A Light hits the Faded Rose,
Sapped by the Bleak Autumn.
Through the Door blows Winds of Woe,
Flutters, Petals of Sorrows.

Of Love Birds and Taxi

2007-02-14T20:08:00.000-08:00

I got home a little later because there was more competition for taxis. *Grrr... Bite*

Having Celebrated Bachelor's day with a long evening of OT and Workout (lots of Bench Presses and flys - it's awesome, I almost have the whole gym for myself Yeahhh!)... I came out of the gym... only to see half a dozen couples lined along the streets in the middle of the Business district... flagging for taxis. With the place bristling with office buildings save for a few restaurants, I wonder how could they end up staying in this area so late in this area - because there isn't much to do after eating other than zapping at each other in the eye over the messy dining table.

(x_x)

(just wanted to poke fun at them lovebirds... Haha...) :P

And thus, the taxi drivers were a little more "Guai Lan" tonight, driving around with their "Taxi" lights in green, jabbing at the "Bid" button on their touch screens - refusing to do street pickups.

Here are my thoughts... about V-day... ;)

My Guy side thinks that Valentine's Day is a crowded, overly commercialised... (the usual, groan...)
My Girl side felt that it's pretty unromantic, and if he finds V day, apart from Anniversaries and Your Birthdays to give you the Princess treatment, ye gotta ask yourself girl, if he's really rooting for you... or is he pacifying you and then shelfing you on mothballs for the rest of the year..? (Yeap, Eekness)

The sad thing is... it does seem to happen. I do notice that some of them girls walking on the street with bunch of flowers in their hands earlier that evening while running an errand to Sim Lim Square to pick up some goods. They didn't seem happy. The body language says it all: heads were tilt low, eyes downcast, even the stalks of flowers were pointed down... 真叫人感慨...

I say, avoid it altogether! Yeah, do something fresh. Surprise your partner. Do some homework, then kidnap him or her from office, and "exécutez votre plan romantique!!!" (don't know if it's written correctly in french, but you get the idea. ;)

"I'm rooting for you so much that I can't wait till St. Valentines's." *Smooch... Smooch... Smooch...* Mushy? It has to be, I guess. *Laughs*

(Quel es? ... Ahhh ... la belle femme skunk fatale!! Tch-tch.)

Rein in that beast!

2007-02-12T19:13:00.001-08:00

I gotta have to post this, I want to rein that beast in, and perhaps, put it down for good.

The Beast inside just rattled its cage. A destroyer, a great beast of rage.

It started with One simple phone call. In the playfully dismissive mood, my colleague P shrugs it off and says "I'm not around"... and so I took it:
"P *says* he is not around" (Much to the laughter of other colleagues)
"I don't have the time today," came the impatient reply.
"Oh alright, alright."
*Hands over the phone*
After the phone conversation, P comes around and He tells me that she's not in a good mood, and she'd scold me upside down and all that.
Then I was suddenly agitated and I retorted in a hard tone: "Can't she separate work from her moods? So if she isn't in a good mood, does it entitle her to throw her weight around everywhere she goes? If she can do that, why can't I? I hadn't done that in a long while, and FYI, I ain't a push over!"

It was fast, fluid and haha, If only my brain can spin that fast and I can speak like that in normal conversations. That'd be great, for I could have been a host or a toastmaster.

My tone was harder than usual, and the words aren't the most callous (well, as compared to some of those you'd hear from antagonists in TVB drama shows), but I felt other words come up during my outburst, just that I didn't choose to use them. Words aside, the biggest hit to me was - i felt like exploding into a rage and reason was giving way to chest-beating, head-banging violence, and I felt like an orcish berserker. Not pleasant to feel that again. It made me tremble inside like... maracas. Oh well, it was at least one full year since my cage was last rattled like that. My worst days were during the army days, where a combination of office politics, injury, and other frustrations had my beast uncaged and in a rampage - it had me doing lots of ugly things.

Thinking about it, I was quite disappointed with myself that it happened again. My conscience's already smacking hard on me for that.

As I wrote this, I told P about my temper and apologised to him. It was hard to control the impulse, but I'm not going to stop trying to control it. I guess that's the by-product of a person of passion. ;o)

... Doh!!!

Maburaho!

2007-02-12T04:59:00.000-08:00

trinhday alerted me to this video (A big thank yous!)... I think it's nice, it's great study material for new artists.

The process goes from Outlines then to details like Shading then more details like Highlights + Shadows.

Fun - Fun!

Burning The House Down

2007-02-07T05:35:00.000-08:00

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'nuff said.

Self Advert Time

2007-02-06T05:21:00.000-08:00

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I got bored! :P More of these would come.

Q n A: Why Choose The One Academy?

2007-02-06T05:16:00.000-08:00

Q: WHY CHOOSE "THE ONE ACADEMY"?
A: INDUSTRIAL FOCUS, INDUSTRIAL RELEVANCE, INDUSTRIAL QUALITY

Anything short of it - you'd have a hard time.

Look at Final Fantasy - That is the Quality Benchmark to look towards today in the CGI industry.

Their Students Produce Industrial Quality Work:
http://www.toa.edu.my/showcase/artwork/da.html

Kingston Chan (My Mentor in Maya) told me that studying in TOA is grueling business.

That's what I'd like to hear. Grueling. That's why he's so good.

~CA

I MUST SUCCEED! 只许成功，不许失败！

2007-02-05T03:48:00.000-08:00

I'm 24.

I don't want to make Electronic Schematic Diagrams for the rest of my natural life. :( So Boring!!!

I've always longed to become a CG artist or a CG animator. :)

It seems to me, that it comes apparent that I'm not driven by anything else but by the passion that comes from the Spur of the Moment, kinda like exploding fuels of a solid booster rocket that burns out quickly, so I always needed new supplies of 激发斗志的 "Rockets"... Or else I'd drift aimlessly in space.

So following the "Strike" of "Lightning" I had earlier in the morning... I opened powerpoint and made a slide: on it I typed these:

"NOW: FEB 2007

3 MTH GOAL (APRIL 2007)
I WANT TO GET INTO THE ONE ACADEMY

1 YEAR GOAL (APRIL 2008)
I WANT TO FINISH THE FOUNDATION STUDIES AND GET INTO CG+ANIMATION

3 YEAR GOAL (APRIL 2010)
I WANT TO GRADUATE WITH A STRONG CG+ANIMATION PORTFOLIO

LOOK AT THIS SHEET OF PAPER EVERYDAY"

I printed it onto a sheet A4, and stuck one at my office...

I want to be spurred every morning when I get up from Bed - Good supplies of "Rockets" every morning to spur me on. I printed it in A3, and when I bring it home tonight, I'd paste it on the Ceiling of my room, above my bed.

Haha, 够疯狂的吧！

CA

Struck!

2007-02-05T00:04:00.000-08:00

This morning, when I looked at the weekly calendar at my office... It wasn't flipped to this week... yet. On the Saturday and Sunday (3 Feb, and 4 Feb) Boxes, there it Wrote: "La Salle"... "La Salle"

CRUMBS!

I had meant to go to the La Salle Day Event... I missed it... *Smacks head... Doh!*

Then BOOM! Something hit me. It seemed familiar, but this time, it's much more powerful, like a direct hit from a lightning that almost turned me into a human chunk of fulgurite. :o

This, coupled with the "Stirring" help from my drumming buddy trinhday, I've created this Journal. This would mark my path in my Journey to becoming a CG Artist/Animator.

More to come!

~CA